Name, please. Reeser T. Shadow, thanks. Approximate Age? Maybe…early twenties. How does that sound? (I say this as if my birth date wasn’t listed on my page…) Are you happy in your life? Well, I think we’ve been getting along more or less okay. We’re not always happy with each other, but it could be worse, I suppose. Things have been a bit dull lately. *pause* I don’t know if I should blame Life though. I think it’s me. I think I’m being a problem. Do you feel like anything is missing? Well, sometimes. Actually…yes. I felt yesterday like something was missing, and I looked and it was. I keep telling myself I don’t know that for sure, but I do and it is. I should probably stop lying to myself. Do you plan on being a musician/artist/writer? Funny you should ask…yes. Yes I do. Do you think you are artistic? Well, I think I am, but that’s not to say there aren’t thousands who are better than I am. Have you ever tried hard drugs? Good heavens, no. What age would you like to die? Haha…um…not now. If I died now, I’d die having done nothing. Of course, that might be better for other people. The less one does, the easier it is to forget that person, right? Not that I’d want to be forgotten easily, but if I were, then at least maybe I wouldn’t be making anyone else sad. …isn’t this kind of ridiculous to ask someone? Would you let your kids smoke weed? Let them? No. Are you an angry person? Sometimes…I can be. I’m not angry right now though. It’s been a while since I’ve been properly angry. Probably a good thing. Do you laugh a lot, but don’t really mean it? Mmm…sometimes I might not mean it, but if I laugh, usually it’s because I am amused to some degree. Do you like to think you are popular? No, but I like to think that the people who know me also like me a lot. I’m a little bit selfish that way. Describe your most terrifying dream. Terrifying? Probably that Marilyn Manson one where he was trying to kill me. I woke up and I was scared silly. I’ve written a story about it, so maybe I’ll post it up sometime for you. What band would you die to see live? Wow. Your wording is…bad. I wouldn’t, though if I did it might not be altogether inappropriate. I tend to like Goth and metal bands, so…you know. Death. How would you like to die? Erm *getting uneasy* what’s with all the death questions? Do you, like, do arrangements or something? That’s pretty dark. In a bad way. What’s your opinion on self-mutilation? Well, I don’t do it, and I wish other people wouldn’t because I don’t think it helps anything. Do you believe in capitalism? Believe in it? Like…believe that it’s the best, or believe that it exists? Communism? I don’t think you’re listening to me… Freedom of speech or controlled society? Well, I like having free speech, but as it is…we still seem to have to control our speech a LOT to be accepted in this society anyway. Would you consider yourself intelligent? That’s kind of cruel. I like to think I am, but that certainly isn’t saying I think I know everything or that I know best. When was the last time you cried? Umm…gosh. I don’t know. When was the last time you laughed? Eh, probably at something the puppies did. Ever had your ass kicked? I don’t think so… What’s your middle name? See question No. 1. Single or taken? I’m engaged. If taken, do you love this person? Yes. And I’ll even stop giving answers to this question that will disturb him. Who is your best friend? You know, I haven’t got one. I am pretty sure about that, too…it depresses me, so let’s not talk about it any further. Why is this person your best friend? … Are you moody? Define “moody.” Are you depressed? Mmm…not officially, but that doesn’t stop my feeling really low an awful lot. Are you in a good mood today? Not really. I feel a shade above low. If not, why are you not? Heh…because. I think I was dissed. Quietly, but still…dissed. Are you afraid of the swine flu? No, but I don’t want to get sick. Are you afraid to be yourself? You know, to be honest, I am. I try to be mostly honest about myself here, but I still can’t be. I have these times (lately I’ve been pretty successful at avoiding them) where I feel really horrible and angry and depressed and…dark. And I’m afraid of people seeing that because they don’t deal with it very well. They either try to cheer me up in all the wrong ways (a rarity, but it happens), or they act shocked and like I’ve hurt them by expressing that (I can never tell if they think I’m saying they’re the ones who caused it, or if they’re saying they thought I was better than that or what), or they’ll tell me off because they think I’m being dramatic just to get on their nerves… I don’t think I do very dramatic things most of the time, but sometimes I have to at least write about it because I’m not always happy and confident and feeling good. I have a side that feels sad or empty or angry…I have a side of me that even I feel afraid of sometimes because it feels just a few shades away from being evil, but it’s still there. I mean, mostly I’m okay with myself…but sometimes I’m very afraid of other people seeing my bad sides and getting the wrong idea. I think it’s a big part of what appeals to me about the whole Goth thing…because it allows me to acknowledge the sides of myself that people don’t usually see. What would you label yourself? See above. Do you live with your parents? Yes. How many siblings do you have? Four. Do you wear skinny jeans? I hate skinny jeans. I like to have a bit of a flair at the bottom of my pants. Are you emo? Heh…no. Are you aware that all emo kids look exactly the same? Are you aware that you’re wrong? Are you a hater? I don’t think I am. I mostly just hate idiots, and almost everyone does that. Even idiots hate other idiots. Are you anti-racist? Yes, but that doesn’t mean I believe reverse racism is okay. I’m very NOT okay with other people saying bad things about white people in front of me. Explain your personality in 3 words. You’re kidding, right? What do you wish your name was? I like the name Reeser. How old do you want to be when you get married? 24…25, maybe. What do you want to name your kids? I don’t know. I don’t even know if I want any. When was the last time you brushed your teeth? When I got up…at almost 5:45 yesterday afternoon (explains why I’m still up, eh?). What are you wearing right now? Brown-tinted bluejeans, a green sleeveless shirt with my white Wildecamp shirt over it. Green converse. Say something random. Androgyny again. (Sorry, Chris. I think I fail at random.) What do you wear to bed? Depends. Usually a t-shirt and shorts or pajama pants. What color is your underwear? Green…white with multicoloured dots. …I know, right? Am I getting too personal? No. If you were, I’d delete the questions. What’s your view on nihilism? My view doesn’t matter. Pacifism? I don’t think I could do it. I have that side of me that, if you got it angry, would never just sit tight and take it… Do you read literature? Some. Yes, I even read “literature” if you mean it in the snobby way. Do you love horror movies? I like to see them sometimes, but usually just the once. If I see them a second time, all the scary goes away. Do you like comedies? Mostly no. Sex jokes and toilet jokes really get on my nerves. Do you have anger problems? Problems? No…just that one angry streak that flares up sometimes and is hard to get back under control for a while. Do you talk to yourself? No. If you ever hear me talking to myself when nobody’s there, it’s because I’m being someone else, talking to someone else. I know. Sometimes…I just have to let my imagination work itself out, and then I can get on with whatever it was I was doing. Has anyone ever told you you have a nice smile? Yeah, but I don’t really agree. Nice eyes? No. I have been told that my eyes are either “really dark” or “scary” though. Nose bleed? Hm…when I was a sophomore in college, I think, I had a while where I kept getting nosebleeds…and one night I was really exhausted, so when I woke up in the middle of the night with a nosebleed, I just sort of hung over the side of my bed and let it drop onto the floor (I had a wooden floor) until it stopped. Then I went back to sleep. Ever been so mad you cried? Yes. That’s when you’re less likely to get hurt. If I’m mad and I’m shaking instead of crying, that’s the one you wanna watch out for. Are you listening to anything right now? Some Joy Electric. Do you have any phobias? Hospitals. Needles. Are you an insomniac? Heh heh heh…you tell me. Are these questions pointless? *sigh* What’s the point of anything, really? Favourite color? Black. That was a lame ending question, btw. End. Reeser “ ‘I don’t understand my own feelings. Perhaps they are clearer to you than they are to me...’ “ ‘You don’t begin to know what a mystery you are!’ Armand said. “ ‘But at least you know yourself thoroughly. I can’t claim that,’ I said. ‘I love her, yet I am not close to her. I mean that when I am with you as I am now, I know that I know nothing of her, nothing of anyone.’ ” Louis and Armand Anne Rice, Interview With The Vampire | 
