When was the last time you were annoyed? Earlier today. I don’t even know why. Reeser was looking for an excuse to hate something, and I think he’s being completely ridiculous. In the past 24 hours who has texted you? Chris. I don’t like texting, so the fewer texts I get, the better. Does internet gossip ever end in you sitting in tears at the computer desk? Internet gossip? What’s that? Actually…I haven’t cared about it in years. That is one of the best things about distancing yourself from the high school you graduated from: so much less drama. Do you find yourself happy at this point? No. I’m agitated, but I don’t know why. I needed to go outside the house today, and I didn’t really do that because dinner got messed up and it was dark out by the time I had eaten. Ugh. I hate that. Have you changed this year? I don’t think I’ve changed that much from what I was last year. Will you talk to the person you like tonight? I don’t know. No. It’s already after eleven. Will you be sleeping alone tonight? Will I be sleeping at all tonight? No. Probably not. It will be morning by the time I decide to lie down. Name the first person you can think of that you know that has a tattoo? Hm. Doctor Raven. If you were upset, who's the first girl you would go to? I don’t know. I wouldn’t. I don’t go to people when I’m upset. Unless it was the angry kind of upset. I might fire off an email to Kerri, just to siphon off some of that rage. What would you say if someone told you they were in love with your brother? I’d ask her why she was telling me and not him. In fact, I’d wonder why she was talking to me at all. What do you think of when you hear the word "slut"? Well, just now I randomly thought of a red parrot when I read that word. I don’t know. Don’t ask me to explain it. What does the 5th text in your inbox say? “Michael Jackson is dead.” Apparently Chrisface thought I really needed to know. Would you ever give your number out over the internet? I have. I recommend doing it with caution. Although, with cell numbers, I am not as concerned because people can’t find my house via cell number. Have your parents ever caught you drinking? No, because I don’t drink. How many people have you kissed who's name started with an C? One. And that would be the only person I’ve kissed, anyway. Do you think boys truly understand girls? Do I think anyone truly understands anyone? No, I don’t. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? No. I’m not much of a smiler. Look at your nails; do they need to be cut? Probably soon. Like, tomorrow. Or tonight. Last person you talked to on the phone? Melody, I think. I’m kind of annoyed that I got sick and didn’t end up talking to her yesterday or earlier tonight. Don’t know when I’ll get a chance to talk to her now, since Chris will be here tomorrow night, and then I’ll be out-of-town and doing all manner of things. Did you sleep in past noon today? Absolutely. My day and night schedule is completely backwards now. Quite an accomplishment. Are you wearing a ring? If you are, who gave it to you? No. I haven’t worn any of my rings in ages. It seems strange to me that I used to wear them all the time. How late did you stay up last night and why? I stayed up because I’d slept all day and needed food. The only way to get food was to get up, and I was really not tired enough to go back to sleep until a bit after dawn. What pissed you off today? I already told you that I don’t know what did it. Reeser had this awful moment of clarity, where we realized that we were fully justified in hating something, but then I was sort of groggy and forgot what it was, so now I think he’s just being stupid and hating things just for something to do. We get that way if we’re bored and left to our own devices for too long. Have you ever ran over an animal? I can’t drive. I can walk though…and I’ve run and jumped over my poor, scared kitty before. His eyes get all big and “O MY GOSH!” It’s kind of funny, but I feel bad for scaring him, so I’ll go and pat him. Poor kitty. What are you doing right at this moment? This survey…and thinking about deleting this song because I don’t like it that much. I like a few Amon Amarth songs, but not this one. Nothing special. Have you ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face? I don’t think so. If I have, I don’t remember. The worst ones are the ones you get around your collar, because then the fabric is always rubbing them and making them worse. Ugh. Is there anyone you would like to fight? No. Not today. I don’t think I could concentrate enough to win. What did you do yesterday? I was sick, which you can read about in my last entry. I was in bed most of the day (and night), which hasn’t happened in ages. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? In the chair in the production studio at Capital. I took a nap there. What are the chances of you getting the person you like? I think they’re in my favour. I own him, so I’m not too worried…funny that we’ve dated for four years as of yesterday’s date next month. That is a long time. I hate though, that half of the people I’ve had to say this to gape at me and are sort of incredulous about it. How can we possibly have dated that long and not be engaged? Well…we’re poor. That’s how. Do you think you'll have the same best friend a year from now? I hope. If you ended up in jail, who would most likely be in there with you? My sister? That is a tough question, because I cannot imagine what I’d even be going to jail for. But…say my sister did something idiotic, or that her friends did (that is more likely than she herself doing something stupid), and I happened to be there…I could see that as a possibility, but it’s still waaaaaaay out there. Are you one of those people who are always cold? Only in winter. Honestly, what's on your mind? I don’t know. My mind is foggy from too much sleep. Have you ever felt like you literally needed someone? Yes. I try hard not to feel that way though, because it’s not a pretty feeling. Well, okay. I suppose it could be if you never stop to think about the fact that the person you think you need will probably let you down. That makes it a lot less pretty. Do you get mad when people smoke around you? I get annoyed when it’s blowing in my face and choking me. Makes me want to go inside the door, where they can’t smoke, and press my face against the glass and make faces at them. But I don’t do that. Is your hair naturally straight? It’s naturally…it sort of has a little bit of a wave, but mostly it’s straight. End. Reeser She’s got something important to tell me, Though, I suspect, She doesn’t know a damn thing. She just likes to put on an air of mystery To impress me. So, When I think she’s paying A quick visit to the future On my behalf, She’s right here behind my back Making faces. Stop shilly-shallying and lying to me! I warned her. And please don’t wear black. You are not getting ready to go to a funeral, Are you? I could see she was miffed. I believe she actually had tears in her eyes, And was trembling. But what about? She wouldn’t say. Charles Simic, “My Darling Premonition” | 
